june 18, 2023

blog post #6

oh my god. things have been hectic, wild, absolutely bananas. today is father's day, and i bought my dad this lovely button down with little birds on it. i also made him a nice card, too.

do you guys have, like, this god-awful need to be a superhero? because i NEED to be a superhero. it's almost ridiculous. the idea that you can be a totally mundane high school student with a wonderful secret hidden, it's just an all-encompassing need of mine. i think that is why i started this blog; it's my form of being like spider-man. (i am watching the andrew garfield spider-man while working right now.)

like, look: i have a secret identity, my website has thousands and thousands of views (no joke), i'm a niche internet micro-celebrity. but still, i wish i had that feeling of some big, special secret. i don't really have one.

anyway, what else has been going on? well, my junior paper is nearly done. i have to add some footnotes and work on my formatting but besides that i'm all set.

also, I did some new nails - they're OPI's i'm not really a waitress, i think i mentioned in a different blog post. anyway. the ex - my friend said i should refer to him as excalibur so that is what he is called now - anyway, the excalibur and i went for brunch today but everywhere was insanely packed. so we went to starbucks and i copped a baguette and a nitro cold brew. delish dish. he and i have been talking a lot about some philosophical subjects recently, as he is a philosophy major. we've been going on the topic of what the opposite of things really are. for example, is the opposite of fire water? or is it simply no fire? what we've decided is that opposites fall into two categories: opposite properties and opposite existence. existence is very simple: if something exists, the true opposite of it would be the absence of that thing. IE: fire vs no fire. but properties is a little more complex.

imagine, if you will, a color wheel. the opposite of green on this wheel would be red. that would be its opposite property. its opposite existence would be the absence of red. it's still more complex, though. because couldn't it arguably be black or white? it gets very semantic, since opposites are very subjective. then you get in to the topic of verbal opposites, which is even worse. if you say "i love you," then what is the opposite? "i don't love you." "you love me." "i hate you." "you hate me." etc etc. or is it simply silence? "i am baking" could be "i am not baking," "you are baking," "i was baking," or any variation on each word. which means every sentence has thousands of opposites. there is no set definition of opposite because it is so damn subjective. anyway. that is what i have been thinking about lately.

love,

- t xx