february 10th, 2025
blog post #13
Hi all! It's really good to be back. As you can probably tell, I did a light aesthetic overhaul. Don't fret, I'm still the girliest girl to ever girl but I thought I needed something a bit more adult as, well, that’s what I am now. Speaking of being an adult: college is (most of the time) fucking BRILLIANT. I get to go to bed when I want, party when I get invited (rare), and learn things I actually do care about. The torturous period of forced mathematics has ended and assignments are relevant to what I want to discover, what I want to understand. It should come as no surprise that I'm an English major – almost like my life entirely revolves around writing and words. I decided not to be a creative writing major because let us be honest: that is a waste of tuition. I don't know how often I spoke about my acting on here in previous years but I've continued to pursue it and it's not going to shabbily. Ugh, I missed candidly talking on here.
I disappeared because my blog basically got leaked around my school and I didn't even know, so a lot of people who I didn't like knew way too much about me and my personal life. As I mentioned, this was supposed to be my safe space and entirely anonymous but suddenly it had thrust me back into the public eye during my senior year of high school. Really shit experience but hey: I was pretty much Princess Diana for a while. There are worse people to be.
Over the last year, I've been in a band, played Juliet in Romeo and Juliet, got into some tidy schools and went through a crazy series of men. Right now, I'm taking a big long break from the dating scene. Don't worry, I will do exposé on a few of them – only the ones who truly deserve that. Xyresic hate coming right at you!
I'm currently learning Latin (hellscape of monstrous proportions), music theory (even larger proportions), volcanic structure (killing myself), and studying the Bible as a work of literature. I'm a hardcore atheist but fuck me if that class isn't fascinating. I'm playing Ruth Condomine in Blithe Spirit in about a month. I decimated the competition in that audition room. There were, like, 140 people and a lot of them were drama majors etc. Suck it, LOL!!! It's going really well but I have about 600 lines to memorize and it's beginning to get to me. I fear I have overbooked myself.
Been writing music again, too. I have about 9 songs written with just some piano and guitar; they're not awful but they definitely aren't something the world needs to hear, if you are picking up what I am putting down. They're pretty much all about the god-awful situationship I had right as I got to college. It has left me barely a person, I'll be frank. I'll get past it and it'll all be okay but for now, it's hard to be myself. That's really why I started my blog back up: it was a huge part of my identity and rebooting it might take my mind off who he made me and who I was before. So expect more posts and more edits and updates.
Love you all,
xx T,